We Got the Rats! :)

We drove all the way to Lynchburg today to get them, and let me just say....FUCK LYNCHBURG. We were there for >20min. and already begging to be back in Roanoke. *rolls eyes* I swear, whoever planned out those roads needs a few bullets in the head.

ANYWHO, they're ADORABLE! <3 I would post some pictures, but for some reason I can't find my camera! :( But, Mike got a hooded, variegated cream/fawn and he named him Skeeter. Mine's named Wheaties and he's a hooded, variegated ivory/buff. ADORBS!! <33 We've already fed them their first meal of blueberries and spinach. :) Skeeter didn't really want any - whether he was too shocked/scared or just wasn't hungry we don't know - but Wheaties ate nearly ALL of his! :D After a while we decided to leave them alone for a bit to get aquainted with their new home and they seem to be more curious than scared now. :)

Besides today this last week has been a blur though. Between waiting to get the rats and his paycheck, we haven't really been paying attention to much else. We did end up watching a few movies - one was Stigmata, which he downloaded because I've never seen it before, and it was AMAZING! Definitely top 3 paranormal/demon movies that I've ever seen! He says that next he's going to get The Devil's Advocate for me and I hope it's HALF as good as Stigmata was! In fact, just talking about it makes me want to watch it again....I wish I could bring the tv into the bathroom so I could watch it while I take a bubble bath. xP

No plans for tomorrow though - besides if he has to go to work - but we'll probably end up spending the whole day with Skeeter and Wheaties. :)

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<3 Zee

Happy Easter!

I had a great weekend, for once! xP Saturday night Mom, Renee and I were all supposed to go out for a drink, but Pam, Andre and Mom's friend Brooke ended up coming along too. It's not that I minded them coming, Mom just should have picked a better place, or a round table where everyone could've faced each other. It was so annoying to look back and forth over each other just to get a few sentences in! But the food was good and we all had a good time. :)

Easter was pretty good too - it was more of an up and down day than Sat. Mike went to work at 9am, then a few hours later I went over to Mom's to hang until they went across the street to Nana's. Well, it was a freaking MAD HOUSE. The kids were taking turns screaming and crying, Mom was crying because Dad bitched out, and Renee was so pissed off at the kids I thought she was going to slap me just for trying to talk to her. And, how I'll never know, through all of this, Richie was sleeping on the couch like nothing was happening. He rolled over a few times, but I don't think there was a time when he actually opened his eyes or said anything. We took the kids outside, but that was a mistake - Bella kept trying to climb up the concrete steps, and Patrick kept peeing out of his shorts leg - one time he did it right behind me on the steps and ending up getting me with a drop or two. ><

Shortly after, Mike (THANKFULLY) rescued me by calling to say that they had let him go early because even though they were dead as hell, he was the only one actually doing anything. :) He got off just in time to get changed and us rush off to dinner, which was really nice for a change. Everyone was in a great mood and smiling - no fights! Cindy even brought over her boyfriend and his kid - the poor girl looked petrified to even look at any of us! The kids had a blast though, and that's all that matters in the end. :)

Yesterday and today have just been rat-filled! xP I haven't gotten them yet, but since I went to the pet store last week and held one of the rats, I have been hell bent on getting my rats, and I set next Sat. as the date I plan to go get them. (We might have to end up waiting until Sun. if Nana wants to go with us so she can hit Kohl's.) Yesterday I finished off their hammock, made a rope and a second neck-tote-back for them to crawl in when we're holding them. :) Only need a nesting box and a litter box and their cage will be complete! Today, we starting making a little table-top play area for them, but it still needs a few things before I'm going to be satisfied with it. I'm so excited to get them! :D <3

Anywho, I'm going to go print out a few more spreadsheets then take a nice, long bubble bath. :)

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<33 Zee

Great day. :)

Today has been a pretty great day! :) Apparently we were going to get money for Easter, but they gave it to us today instead of waiting until this Sunday. After, we went out and got the rat cage!!! <3333 We're going to be driving up to Lynchburg next weekend to get them, and I can't wait! To be honest, I'm glad Mike talked me out of getting them today because I still need to print out their diet schedule, finish their hammock and a few other little things that really do need to be done before we get them. Either way....NEXT WEEKEND!! AHH!!! <333

So, we got home and set it up, then hung around until it was time for him to go to work. As soon as I got back, Nana and Mom were both calling me wanting me to come up and visit the kids. Which, I kind of didn't want to since I hadn't slept last night and I was getting a migraine, but it might be the only time I get to see them, and I didn't want to pass up the chance. They were so adorable, and they both seemed to like me. :) Patrick wouldn't leave me alone! He kept shooting me with his gun and wanting me to fix/open things for him - at one point he even "flew" into my lap so I would hold him while he was watching The Cat in the Hat. xP He must've watched it 5x just while I was there! Bella was adorable too, she kept sucking on her thumb while she twirled her hair! <3 Adorbs! She spent most of her time eating and trying to take Patrick's toys though. xP

Anyways, great day and I SOOOOOO can't wait til next weekend. I just don't know what I'm going to do with myself until then! AHH! :DD <33

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<33 Zee

Spring Cleaning

The house has been so peaceful the past few days! :D (Especially since Frank hasn't been here in 2wks!!!) I have been sewing some things for my rats - one was almost like a tote bag (a bag with a halter strap,) for them to crawl in while we're holding them, and the other was a hammock with a cuddle pocket in it! :D I'm still not the best at keeping my stitches straight (by any stretch of the imagination,) but they're strong and the rats are going to chew/pee on them anyways. xP At least fleece is washable! I'm getting better though, so maybe by the time I need to make them another hammock it won't look quite so "homemade." xP Still no word from the breeder about them - I think I'm going to send her an email about it. The only problem is figuring out a way to word it so I don't sound like I'm angry or rushing her. :/ I don't want to make waves, but I REALLY want my rats! :'(

Aside from sewing, I've been spring cleaning like crazy today. I packed up a bunch of stuff that we don't use regularly, so it won't be such a hassle when we're ready to move out. I even rearranged my vanity area so that I can have my sewing machine on the little table beside my laptop. :D All in all, it looks worse than it did when I started, but it's definitely going to take some time - we have a lot of stuff to go through - and most of it is in boxes/bags since we have more stuff than room. xP Hopefully, that won't be a problem for too much longer.

Tomorrow, I'm going in to work for my grandmother at 6am! :'( I am so not used to getting up that early since the car's mine now, and I know I'm going to be groggy and cranky with everyone. xP I'm so used to having to stay up until 2am so I can pick Mike up from work that I doubt I'm going to be able to go to sleep before at LEAST midnight! :/ I'll have to take a nap when Mike goes to work, because he'll be closing tomorrow and DEFINITELY won't be getting off until AT LEAST 1am. :;( So, crazy-weird hours tomorrow.

Anywho, Bad Girls Club and Love Games tonight! :DD I can't wait to see the premiere of Love Games, Leia was my favorite! :D <33

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<33 Zee

PLAY WITH IT!

We have seriously got to get the fuck out of here....these people are getting lazier and dumber (if possible,) by the day!! Now, they're using dishes that have food all over them because they're too "intelligent" to use the correct settings on the dishwasher! How fucking stupid!! NO WONDER they constantly feel like shit! It doesn't really bother me that much - I'm not their fucking keeper, so if they want to live like slobs I say let them - we don't go down there anyways. But, it's really starting to take it's toll on Mike and I can't stand watching him use his day off or his (few) hours before and after work cleaning up after them. I literally have to pull him away and explain to him that she's HIS mother, not the other way around. If she's too lazy to clean (or too stupid to actually make her daughter do anything,) then let them live in their shit hole! *sigh* I can't to see him get so upset over it everyday, especially when we make comments loud enough for the whole house to hear, but it still doesn't do any good. Fucking lazy bitches.

Anyways, on the lighter side of things, we'll be getting our cage for the rats in 2 days! :DD Still no word from the breeder yet, though, which is really starting to piss me the fuck off. It's been nearly 2wks since I last heard from her, and I had no problem giving her a little lee-way to sort out who's getting what rats, but this is starting to get a little ridiculous - especially since she's been getting on FB and chit-chatting. If you have time to fuck around on the internet, how about sending out emails you've been promising? Hm? *sigh/rolls eyes*

Now, I'm getting all upset again. TBH, there's really not a lot for me to be happy about right now, except for Mike - but, I can't even be happy with him because he stays so fucking pissed at everyone else in the house. We just SERIOUSLY have to get the fuck out of here ASAP, so they can implode alone - we want NO part of it. And I'd love to see her come crawling back to us when they're getting ready to get evicted! "AHAHAH!! SORRY BITCH!! You already ruined our lives once, and you will NOT be doing it again," will be our repsonse, if she gets one at all. I wonder if she even cares/realizes that she has completely ruined any chance she ever had at having a relationship with her son once we move out. Hell, he didn't even want her coming to our wedding - that was PURE PITY. *rolls eyes*

Anyways, I'm going to go take a nice, long bubble bath and hope that everything looks better in the morning - but, I REALLY doubt it. All this fucking drama is just consuming our lives.

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<33 Zee

No Internets

The next few days are definitely going to be fun. >< Supposedly, Cox didn't tell Sis about $33 of the balance, so for now we don't have any internet or tv. *scream* lol It's really not that bad, until Mike goes to work - then I'm bored out of my fucking mind! I have no idea when they'll get it sorted out either. Hell, it could be sorted out now and I wouldn't know because I'm working for Nana right now. But, they were getting so defensive about it, that they made it sound like it would be until one of them got paid. *rolls eyes* We seriously need to get the fuck out of this house. We may not have a lot of spending money, but all of our shit usually gets paid - their problem is ALL of their money is spending money. Idiots.

Anywho, Sunday dinner went pretty good yesterday, except for Mom being a bitch as usual. It's seriously just getting fucking infuriating now - SHE NEEDS TO GET THE FUCK OVER IT! And making jokes about killing my Daddy is DEFINITELY not the way to get on my good side...just a side note. But, all in all I'm getting fed up and I can't even stand to be around her anymore - I get less stressed about Pam now! We all want to help her and be there for her, but there IS a breaking point - for everyone.

Oh! And I'm getting the cage for my rats this weekend! :D Still no word from the breeder, but I'm not surprised....her waiting list is pretty long. :/ So, it may be months before I can have my baby boys. :'(

Well, I better wrap this up, it's been half an hour since my last customer so I'm sure one will come in any minute. :/

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<33 Zee

Update

Today's been a pretty good day so far. It's pretty crappy outside, but it's Mike's day off so hopefully we won't have to go out too much. Nana went ahead and paid me for working on Mon., so we were thinking about maybe going out to dinner or something. Which would be nice, I've been feeling pretty the last few days - I've even been wearing shorter dresses! :DD It's an amazing feeling when you lose all of that weight - you feel so much better about yourself. Now, if only my family would be happy for me, it would be a COMPLETELY different story. xP

I did end up painting my toenails three times before I was satisfied. That vintage car blue just made them look really messy, so now it's back to the pink! But, I went for a brighter pink than usual. Still looks good though. :) And I did my fingernails my favorite way - french manicure. <33 It makes my hands look so beautiful, especially with my wedding rings. :DD

Anywho, we're still deciding what we want to do today, so I'd better quit writing/ignoring him and get it over with. xP

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<33 Zee

Leveling Off

Everything has definitely been a lot better since the walking disease went to Wisconsin. And now he's driving the truck, so he wont be back until Sunday AT LEAST! :DD And they're saying he'll only be home 1wk out of the month!! :DDDD HAHAH!! No more dealing with the fat fuck!! :D

Anywho, Mike and I are doing great. We haven't been fighting at all, but we have been whining pretty much constantly about not getting our rats yet. The ones we wanted already had a list of people waiting for them, so I really doubt it's going to happen. :( Granted, people always reserve rats that they end up not getting, but I doubt several people in a row are going to do that. :/ We're still getting the big cage for them, but I've been thinking about canceling the order for the small one and just put them in the big one up front. The smaller one is really only for quarantining purposes and we won't really be needing it until we decide to get more boys.

Oh! And I am getting really fucking pissed off with Virgin Mobile. Last week, when we were ordering the cages, they decided to take out several charges (and a few more the other day,) for NO REASON! They credited back one charge, but are saying there's no possible way that they could have charged it again, and are pretty much refusing to credit it back. It's RETARDED!! I have the charges ON MY BANK STATEMENT, so how they fuck could it not have happened? Hmm? *rolls eyes*

Well, I just took Mike to work, so I'm off to redo my toenails. I painted them fuchsia yesterday, but it came out a little darker than I was hoping for and it just looks weird. :/ He wants me to try that vintage car-blue I got recently. :)

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<33 Zee

Internet-less

Ugh, FINALLY the internet is back on. I can finally stop listening to Mike complain about not being able to play his computer games. xP

Anyways, the house has calmed down quite a bit. There really hasn't been any fighting, but Frank is still finding little ways to be an asshole. It took him TWO DAYS to finally replace a socket (which, Mike had to pretty much yell at Beth to get that to happen,) and while he was in here he decided he was going to try to insult me. *rolls eyes* Yeah, like you're even CLOSE to being on my level. First, I didn't hear exactly what he said, but Mike said he was pretty much calling me old - so I said, "Yeah, I'm half his age - if not LESS." About 10min. later (oh yeah, took him over half an hour to do it because he's too fucking cool to kill the circut before doing electrical work - he'd rather play operation. AND he got shocked! xPP) he says the reason it was shorting was from me walking across the floor. UHM, so you're calling me old AND fat? What room does he have to talk, he looks like he's twelve months pregnant - WITH TRIPLETS! He's GOT to weigh AT LEAST 350lbs. WTF? I'm HALF THAT! *rolls eyes* He's just upset that his "fiancee" isn't NEARLY as cute as me. :DD (if you haven't seen her, she looks like a 12yo boy with grandpa's face! xP)

Anyways, Mike told him where to shove it and he left without another word. And besides his "sly" little quips, he doesn't say anything to me. I straight up called him a bitch not too long ago, and him AND Beth just sat there silent and never said a word. It's pretty bad that you're scared of a GIRL, who's HALF your weight. Pathetic, nasty fuck. *rolls eyes*

Sorry, I've been watching Bad Girls Club for the last few hours, so I'm feeling a little catty. xP A new episode comes on tonight, and I can never stop myself from watching the reruns before the new one comes on. :D It's just so funny to watch them fight over NOTHING! xP I was only halfway paying attention this week because I was (FOR ONCE) painting my (red) nails and (pink pearl) toenails. Mike sounded pretty excited about the color combination. xP

Our hamsters have been doing good, but Twitch (one of Mike's,) is still biting. And she is SOOO fucking annoying when she drinks - she BITES the ball on the bottle! WTF! How can two SISTER hamsters that live IN THE SAME CAGE be SOOO different? Tweak is a dream! You can pick her up without gloves at all now! At least mine (Pixie) hasn't ever bitten, but she's still VERY skittish about being touched/picked up. We still have to corner her and force her onto her flying saucer to pick her up. But, once we get her in our hands she just sits there - I don't get it.

Oh well - they'll get more comfortable with us. Anywho, new BGC in half an hour and I've still got to put up all of my nail stuff before I settle down to actually WATCH it. xP

<33 Zee

The House Tornado

Nothing has changed really, still in the same house with the same people dealing with the same situation. I've been job hunting like crazy the last few days, but I really haven't come up with anything too promising. I went ahead and filled out an application to work at HSN again, but I don't know A) how long it's going to take to get a response (last time it was a few months,) and B) whether me working there before (and why I left) will cause me not to get the job. :/ So, I'm still kind of at a loss.

Today itself has been quite the interesting day....after Mike went to work, he gave me a call while he was one his smoke break. I don't know if it was him calling or what, but on the first ring all of the power to the electronics died. The lights and the ceiling fan were still on, but the computers, TV and cable box were OUT, and they were NOT turning back on. The whole house (Beth, Frank, Sis and Chris) were down in the basement trying to figure out which breaker was acting up, but none of them were doing anything. So, we were about to give up - I was back in my room and they were downstairs checking plugs, and I just flipped on the lights and EVERYTHING CAME BACK ON! WTF?!?!? *rolls eyes* Old ass house. xP

During the process of trying to get it to work, Sis and Chris starting fighting...BADLY. He even told Frank that he was so mad at Sis that he was about to slap her - and THAT did it. Currently, he is in the process of packing his shit and moving out, because Beth is kicking him out. Sis said she wanted him out, but she's said that before and nothing ever became of it. This time, since he threatened to hurt Sis, Beth isn't taking any shit from anyone and making him leave - and she said if Sis ever got back with him (whether he TRIED to move back in or not,) she would kick her out too. So, I'm thinking that this is the SERIOUS SERIOUS end to their relationship. It's kind of a double-edged sword.....Chris was a really cool guy to hang around, but unfortunately he was more lazy and aggressive than anything. He would pick a fight with Sis or Beth over NOTHING!! The fight today started over who was going to walk up the stairs and ask me to check the power!

Aaand the power to the electronics just went out again. Thank god my laptop has a battery. xP So, I'm sitting here in the dark hoping if I leave the lights off long enough, everything will trip back on again. *shrugs* I have no idea how electrical wiring works. LOL

Anyways, some serious shit is going down today - so I'm just hiding in my room waiting for it to dissipate. I'm not sure, but I think Chris just left - either with the first load of his shit or for good. To be honest, it was time for him to go anyways. Him and Sis weren't even a couple anymore - they didn't share ANYTHING (not even cigs,) they fought CONSTANTLY, Sis told me more than once she was "done" with him, and the other night he left to go somewhere and she was downstairs on the computer praising god that he finally left the house so she could get away from him. If you don't like the dude, why would you let him live with you? Yeah, he was a cool guy, but once the relationship is over, it's OVER. There's really no mending it past a certain point.

Anyways, I'm going to go back to my rat research and hope no one tries to blame all of this on me (since it started with trying to get my power back on.) :/ Wish me luck?

<33 Zee

Depressive Babbling That No One Cares About

Today has probably been one of the worst days of my entire life...and I don't know if I can recover from it. I'm just so damn down and depressed I almost looked up a suicide hotline number, but I figured they wouldn't want to listen to my stupid ass anyways....who would? I tried to call several members of my family, but they all ignored me (literally pressing the "ignore" button.) I just can't fucking take it....especially since this is all over something so dumb as missng a dentist's appt. My ENTIRE FAMILY is angry with and ignoring me over A FUCKING DENTIST APPT. How ridiculous! Especially since I TRIED to go....I drove around for over 45min. and couldn't FIND the fucking place! I ended up almost 10mi. passed one turn, wasted all of my gas, and almost couldn't even take Mike to work, but that doesn't matter. ALL that matters, is that my grandmother is "embarrased" and "would have a hard time ever showing [her] face there again." REALLY?!?!?!? *sigh*

And Mike's mad at me too....over something even more stupid....A BEER. He barely even looked at me before he got out of the car and just slammed the door in my face. He normally calls me several times just to chat, but he purposely left his cell phone home so I couldn't call him, and he wouldn't have to call me until he was ready to leave. So, I'm just his fucking chauffer. That's all I ever am to anyone....chauffer, errand bitch, pack mule....whatever suits their needs at the moment. I need other people's help to, but at least I always thank them and show a little appreciation for what they did for me....even my grandmother wouldn't be able to deny that with a clear concious.

The saddest part? I'm writing this because no one, literally NO ONE wants to even hear me say "hello," much less anything else. So, what's the point of me being around? Why do I sit here and torture myself with a family that doesn't even appear to like me?

The reason I'm still here? Because I'm too much of a fucking coward to kill myself.

Not Much Different

Not really a whole lot has changed since my last post. I'm still dealing with that tweaked nerve, which is driving me insane. I can't sleep because I have to hold extremely cold drink in my mouth to make the pain stop, the only time I do is when I'm so tired I pass out - which is usually when I'm sitting up, holding my drink. >< Mike's been loving that. But, everything else is generally the same. I helped mom move into her new house this weekend, but we've still got some more stuff to do. Renee's having some problems, but I'd rather not talk about them until things are settled. The hamsters are doing great - Mike's have calmed down A LOT since he's started working with them, but Pixie is still really skittish. :/ It's just going to take some time, I guess.

Well, I'm going to go take some more pain pills and try to work in a nap since Mike's already gone to work.

<33 Zee

On the mend

I'm still pretty sick, but I'm starting to do better. I finally slept last night after DAYS. I went back to the doctor three days ago, and he gave me a cycle of steroids and some nerve pain killers - apparently, the ear infection got so bad that it tweaked a facial nerve, which is why I've been in so much pain. :/ yay. The pain's starting to fade a little, but I'm really worried about the nerve - I've never dealt with anything like this, and I have no idea what to expect. Everyone keeps telling me to go online and read about it, but, honestly, I'm too afraid to do it. I'll start reading some of the worst-case-scenario stuff and start having a panic attack - which, I'm sure wouldn't be too good for me to do right now.

But, on a lighter side, the steroids/pain killers have been making me do some HILARIOUS shit. Last night, I kept falling asleep sitting up - with my drink in my hand! One time I woke up looking for my drink, and found it in the bed, with drink/ice still in it! Another time I jumped out of bed, frantically searching for my drink while half asleep, and it was behind the bed on the windowsill. I kept talking about crazy shit....the other night I started yelling at Mike for no reason - while he was giving me a massage to help me sleep! xP This is why I hate taking steroids, but he's been having a good ol' time laughing at me. lol

Mike got a new job at Buffalo Wild Wings, and he seems to be really enjoying it. I'm not particularly liking the fact that he doesn't get off til after midnight some nights, but it's better than getting up at 4am and driving for over an hour. xP This job's only 5min. away! :D So, everything's slowly but surely falling into place, so we may be moving out a lot sooner than I thought! (but, still not as soon as I'd hoped for. xP)

The hamster's are doing great, BTW. They seem to be settling into their new homes nicely, and even letting us pet/hold them. :) Mike's Russian ones, Twitch and Tweak are still biting a little, but not nearly as bad as the first week. :) Pixie is still REALLY skittish, so petting her is hard, but when I scoop her into my hand she is actually pretty calm. She's starting to nip at my fingers a little, but I think it's just more curiosity than anything - it's no where near hard enough to break the skin. I've been bitten by an old friend's hamster before - when they bite, they mean it - blood was dripping to the floor.

Anywho, I'm going to clean up a little bit and then I'm getting the car back from my grandmother. She was supposed to give it back to me this morning, but since I hadn't slept in so long, when I finally did, I was too zonked out to even hear the alarm. :/ It made me feel bad to waste her time, but she was just happy that I finally got some sleep. xP

<33 Zee

Critterific!

Wow, apparently it's been nearly a month since I've written anything! xP Which, is not suprising...my ear infections came back due to the doctor only giving me half of a cycle of antibiotics. But, I went back yesterday morning and got a full cycle this time, plus some lortab for the pain. Which is suprising, because Sis's boyfriend, Chris, went to the hospital the day before (for a toothache,) and all they gave him was a cycle of antibiotics. :/ A little confusing, yes? xP But, they've been hurting me a lot, so I've barely been checking my messages, much less worrying about writing a blog. lol

My grandfather's birthday was today....and I completely forgot about it. >< I felel REALLY bad, even though I have a pretty damn good excuse - I was up all night in agony over my ear and when I finally went to sleep (around 7am,) I didn't wake up til nearly 2pm. Nana called me not too long after that, freaking out on me for not showing up. :'( I didn't mean to piss anyone off, but I'm sick! I can't help it if I'm passed out half the day from exhaustion/lortab! xP

Anyways, Pixie, my Robo Dwarf Hamster, is doing great! :DD She seems to be very pleased with her home and is getting a little less skittish of us....hopefully we'll be able to hold her soon! The same day we got her, Mike's gerbil, Rico, passed away. :'( It was really sad, and we ended up spending the rest of the night in silence. :/ I felt so bad about it, the next day we went out and got him two Russian Dwarf Hamsters, which are both female. :) He named them Twitch and Tweak. xP Which, are very suitable names.....Tweak is a spazoid and Twitch has an actual eye twitch! xP (It's not anything bad, she does it when she gets angry!) They're a little more hostile than Pixie, but they're warming up to us a lot faster than her. Pixie still runs from our hands a bit, but we can pet Twitch and Tweak with no problem most of the time. :D
We're turning into a couple of regular critter lovers. xP We collectively spend a few hours a day just watching and playing with them (the cat seems to be getting a little jealous.) xP We've even decided that when we get a place of our own, we're going to get me a rat as a house-warming pet. :D I haven't decided whether I want a medium- or large-size rat, but I would definitely love to have an albino one....and I'm pretty sure I'll be naming it Walter, regardless of gender. Walter just seems like a rat's name to me. xDD If you have any suggestions, let me know!

Anyways, aside from the ear agony, life's been going pretty good. Mike got a job at Buffalo Wild Wings, and he's supposed to be starting early this week. :D He was so excited when they told him that he started dancing around the room. xP He ordered his scooter a few days ago, so it could be here at any time. I'm really worried about him driving around on that thing, but he thinks he's being a burden by needing me to drive him around. *rolls eyes* Uhmm...it would be different if he weren't my husband....lol

There have been some bad things happening in the background though. Beth's FIANCE (YES, FIANCE) has been being a petty little BITCH about parking his truck lately. He's been going out of his way, including parking so close to my car you couldn't spit between them and going outside after we've left and scooting his truck a few feet. *rolls eyes* It's really getting ridiculous and there's honestly no reason for it. I hadn't done anything to him, and I really don't deserve to be treated this way. Hell, I haven't even spoken a word to the guy - so, WTF?! I can understand him being upset about me ignoring him, but this is getting childish. EXTREMELY childish....especially since he's been locking Gabriel down in that cold ass basement at nights. One night I even found her locked in the junk room! He's seriously asking for it....Mike is on his last nerve with this guy and I really don't know if I can hold him back from hitting him if he does one more thing. Moving in and screwing his mom does NOT make you anyone's father or give you any power over us. We're roommates, not kids, we came back to help HER out - so get the fuck over yourself.

Anywho, enough of that fat, disgusting slob. He doesn't deserve that much room on my blog....or air. xP

Well, I'm going to go enjoy my hubby's wonderful homemade chicken alfredo and (my favorite!) cooked carrots, which he's making to help me feel better. :)) I hope it works. :/
<33 Zee

The Sewing Life Alchemist

So, I didn't get to see Kerli's interview/performance on the Dj Rossstar show....and I haven't been able to watch the video of it either. :/ My ears have been hurting me so bad the last few days that I've barely been able to keep the ice off of my neck, much less try to stick ear buds in there. :/ Today was my second day on antibiotics though, so hopefully it won't be hurting as badly tomorrow.

I've been sewing my ass off today, trying to take my mind off of it. I had a big, plastic duffel bag that was for shower/beach stuff, but I never used it - so, I turned it into my sewing case! :D I made two big pockets to go on the side (one had smaller pockets on the front,) out of my LBHS After Prom t-shirt. :) Now I have some place to put all of that elastic and stuff without having to sort through it.

I finally finished watching FullMetal Alchemist....and I'm glad I didn't finish it until the second season came out. They left it WIDE the fuck open. xP But, the problem is....the first 10 or so episodes of the second season are a review of the first season. So, we we're sitting there going "WTF? Are you sure this is the second season?" xP He finally had to skip through the episodes (while my eyes were closed,) to make sure. xP

Anywho, off to watch a little Family Guy before I head off to bed. Hopefully, I sleep throughout the night tonight. That would be nice. :)

<33 Zee

Creative

Today's been a pretty good day! We were running errands all morning, but afterwards, we were having fun and hanging at the house with Shaggy. We ended up going through pretty much all of the music on my laptop. xP

Afterwards, I went to work for Nana - which wasn't so bad for once. NO customers came in, and only a few people called, so I pretty much spent the whole time organizing her buttons. She said I could keep all but the shirt buttons. :D She also gave me some ribbon, lace, elastic, snaps, zippers and even bought me a bottle of loose, silver glitter on her way back. :) As soon as I got home I started decorating the beanie baby change purse I made, and she turned out BEAUTIFULLY!! This is probably the third thing I've handmade, and I'm really impressed with how well I did! :D I've been thinking about making stuff like this and then selling them somewhere around here - maybe Happy's when it warms up? I've got a whole bunch of beanie babies that I'm never going to play with again - aside from decorating them if I do intend to sell them!

I just went downstairs to show Mike's mom, 'cause I thought she'd get a kick out of it....and she liked it so much, she gave me one of her beanie babie to make her one! xP

Well, I'm off to start that - probably going to have to rip up another pair of pants to get a zipper for it. xP

<33 Zee

Uplifted

I've been in a really great mood today. :) I have been all day for some reason, even though I technically have no reason to be. xP

We went to Sunday dinner earlier, which was fun. :) We had pot roast with carrots and potatoes, which my grandpa cooked in their new pressure cooker. I thought my grandma was supposed to be making it, but I guess she wasn't feeling that well. :/ It was tasty, regardless of who made it, though! lol My mom seemed like she was in a better mood, which always makes me happy. I'm not too totally sure what's been going on between her and Dad, but I do know that it's been up and down recently. :/

Afterwords, we went out job hunting with Shaggy in tow. We went scrounging around the mall since we hadn't been there yet, and got a few leads. I went into Hot Topic and they said they wouldn't be hiring until June or July. :/ But, things were looking good for Spencer's, which would be an AWESOME job to have! They said they'd be looking over my application today or tomorrow, so hopefully I hear something soon! :D

While we were there I ran into Dixie - I hadn't seen her in FOREVER! But, she was looking good and she's about 20wks. pregnant with a little boy! :) I'll bet he's adorable, I've always thought she would make beautiful kids. :) Then we saw Mike's cousin Bill, whom I call Asshole. xP He didn't recognize me at first, since he hasn't seen me after losing the weight, which was kind of nice. :) I'm not trying to be vain or anything, but it is nice when you get those kind of reactions. You get told you're fat and ugly all of your life, then someone - ANYONE - says "DAYUM!" and you feel like Queen of the World. :)

Mike and I have been doing A LOT better. We finally realized that we were just taking our stress over this house on each other, and we haven't been fighting, like, AT ALL. It's been nothing but "I love you"s and snuggles. :D I love it. I hope it stays like this, at least until we finally get the hell out of here.....this house is stressful enough without us tearing each other a new asshole over nothing.

Well, enough rambling. I'm going to go take a bath and then probably hit the bed early since we have A LOT to do tomorrow. :)

<33 Zee

Worse and Worse

Well, it's only been three days since my last post, but it feels like forever. This house literally feels like how they describe solitary confinement in "Let's Go to Prison." You can't tell the difference between five minutes and forever, your eyes play tricks on you, and you go insane. I really can not take living here anymore. It has gotten to the point where I was asking my family if I could put a tent in their back yard and sleep there, just so we wouldn't have to be here anymore. My grandmother convinced me to go up to my aunt's house and ask her if we could move in, (since she has offered before - and not too long ago at that,) and she gave us an almost rude "no." We're at our wit's ends here, and I honestly don't know what to do anymore. *sigh* It looks like we're just going to have to bite the bullet and continue living here. I'm crying right now just typing that, because the thought of staying in this house - even for one more night - is making me want to TDO myself. (Which, if you don't know what that means, is when you lock yourself up in the psych ward to keep from committing suicide.)

I've been trying to keep myself busy with my craft projects....but I don't have enough fabric and things to finish them, so they're all at a half-point right now where I can't really go any further. So, for the past few days we've pretty much just been sitting here staring at a wall. *shrugs*

I really hope that I can find a job soon. I've been putting in applications everywhere that I've seen them, and I'm honestly baffled that I haven't gotten ANY responses yet, not even "no"s. *sigh* It's getting really old and disheartening. I know that the economy has to do with it to some extent, but what about the places that ARE hiring? Oh well, there's not a whole lot I can do about it, right?

The only thing that's really getting me through is having Mike....if it weren't for him, I wouldn't have bothered TDO-ing myself the first time. He's been my little cheerleader, which has been so fantastic, but at the same time makes me feel bad. Who's his cheerleader? HE DOESN'T HAVE ONE!! His mom has chosen that fat, disgusting FUCK over her own son, his sister barely talks to him....so the only person left would be me....and I'm too broken right now to do anything but make it worse. He needs a cheerleader too, I'm not the only one in this predicament.

Well, enough depressing rambling - I'm going to go listen to "Beautiful Day" by Kerli and try to imagine that it really IS a beautiful day. :/

<33 Zee

Army of Love

The weekend was pretty slow, and so was the first part of the week....we didn't do a whole lot, except go out for lunch a few times, which was fun. :) Thankfully, not any MAJOR drama or anything, which is a nice change of pace from the norm.

Today, was the breaker though - and it's been drama-filled all morning. *rolls eyes* The short and skinny is my grandpa locked his keys in his car, and my grandma thought that was good enough of a reason to scream at me. *shrugs* Oh well, I just wont be talking to her for the next few days.

Anyways, enough of the crap. Last night was AMAZING though, I got to watch the LiveChat with KERLI!! :DD OMG!! GAH!! She looked so gorgeous, and she has the voice of an angel - just when she speaks! :) After watching it, she is definitely one of the most down to earth musicians I've ever seen. We asked about I-Loo, and she squealed like she was talking to her best friend - it was adorable. <3 I can't wait for the next one! She said she was hoping to have another one next month for her birthday, and I hope I can make it! :) Since I'm in the U.S. though, it probably won't be that hard for me to see it, this last one was at 6pm.

I was just listening to some other music, and it was pissing me off, so I changed it to Kerli. xP She just has great music! :DD Army of Love = the sex. <33

Well, I'm going to go check on the hubby and make sure he hasn't fallen into the soup he's making. *rolls eyes* He wouldn't NEED to make it if his mother wasn't so fucking dumb that she wanted to just reheat the roast in the same nasty ass pot and just add some veggies. *BARF* GROSS!! No wonder her cooking always tastes like shit!! xP

<33 Zee - I.L.U.

Better Day

Today has been better, at least we got that damn money. *rolls eyes* So, we're all caught up and now just hanging at the house enjoying ourselves.

Earlier, I was supposed to go up to Nana's to work - but, apparently she didn't hear me agree to it, and eventually told me to just leave. I really don't understand her logic. I come in halfway through her shift and her answer is always, "Well, if I've been here this long I might as well stay the rest of the time." Now, I can understand if I had gotten there an hour or two before she was supposed to leave, but it was halfway through a eleven hour shift! WTF! It makes NO sense.

Anywho, enough bitching about how nutters my grandma can get at times. xP

<33 Zee

Fucked Up Week

The last week has been more of a headache than anything. We've been promised money the last four days, and still haven't gotten it, and who knows when we will. Mike and I had a pretty epic fight, but everything's ok now. I really honestly believe that it's just us being in this house that's making us fight so much - when we were living on our own, even though it was in a motel, we hardly ever fought and we always had everything we needed. Now, we're in an actual house with these fucktards - and we can barely keep food in the house. *rolls eyes* And, unfortunately, most of it is due to his dumbass Mom who can't keep her head out of her boyfriend's ass long enough to see that she's getting herself into some MAJOR debt. *shakes head* Take a note people, this is what happens when you get WAY TOO DESPERATE!

Anywho, everything's going pretty good with the family. My sister's sick, and I think my grandmother might be coming down with something too, but other than that everyone's doing fine. Well, my Dad is apparently still screwing with my Mom's head - which I'm not even trying to get in the middle of. I think they just need to NOT talk to each other PERIOD for a while so they can sort their own feelings out instead of being so worried about the other's. *shrugs* But, that's just my opinion. I don't know the whole story, so I can't really say a whole lot. :/

I'm still trying to quit smoking - and it's probably the hardest thing I've ever had to do, especially since Mike is still going to. I mean, I don't want to make him go outside the room every time he wants to smoke, but him sitting beside me with it drives me INSANE sometimes. And the worst part is, I can't even grab it and take a hit or two if I get really desperate, because you're not supposed to chew the Nicorette and smoke - supposedly, it fucks up your heart. So, I just kind of have to sit there and deal with it. :/ Truth be told, it'll probably be better in the long run, because I'll be used to him sitting beside me with it, so maybe it won't bother me so much once I am done with the Nicorette.

Either way, it's been a really fucked up week and I can not wait for the weekend. I just want to sleep all day and pretend we never moved back in this shit hole. :/ But, that's why they call them DREAMS.

<33 Zee

Photos Galore!

The last two days have been relaxing days, because I messed my back up pretty bad and haven't really been able to do anything. :( I've been working on my music library a little - deleting some old crap and getting some new crap. xP

I've decided that I'm going to quit smoking, and today is the first day. It's been REALLY hard. I've only let myself have a few hits off a cigarette, and that's only every few hours. Thank god for these mints, or I probably would've gone crazy by now! lol But, so far, I think I've done pretty well. I haven't snapped on anyone or starting bing eating. lol

I uploaded a HELL of a lot of pictures onto Facebook, and then I have a few more that I'm going to take off of my camera tomorrow, but it's only like - two. A lot easier to handle than 100+. xP I've got a shot of my AWESOME ass fingernails, and then the checkbook cover I made myself earlier today. It's made from an old t-shirt that I couldn't bare to part with, but I probably was never going to wear again. It was the brown one with the Evil Monkey from Family Guy saying, "There's an Evil Monkey in My Closet!" xP It looks super cute! :)

Well, more later!

<33 Zee

Sore and Achy

Yesterday ended up being pretty nice, aside from the cold. I took Mike and Shaggy a fried chicken lunch with mashed potatoes and green beans w/potatoes. :) They were very pleased. lol We wanted to go inside of Linda's house to eat so we wouldn't have to stand/shiver and get something to drink - but the dumbass electrician locked himself out of the house! We ended up having to wait like 2hrs. for Cindy to show up and let us back inside! Thankfully, their work wasn't affected, but the electrician lost nearly half a day's work! xP When it was pay time, there was a little bit of a crisis since we specifically asked for cash and she wrote us a check. But, we managed to get it cashed and everything was cool. :)

Shaggy ended up hanging out with us for a few hours before he went home, and I think I went to bed RIGHT after he left.....it was right at 9:00p or just a little while afterwards. My back was so sore I could barely sit there til then! I can't believe Mike stayed up so late with the way his shoulder was killing him!! :/

Today's been really boring. We're both too sore to really do anything, so we haven't even left the house, or gotten dressed. xP I've been surfing around the internet and listening to music, just trying to waste some time. *shrugs* There's really nothing else to do today.

Anyways, more later.

<33 Zee

Snow and Nails

Today has been pretty blah so far. I had to take my grandmother to work as usual, then Mike's friend came over to go to work with him. So, now I'm sitting here by myself doing my nails. Which, is kind of nice though. I'm doing standard MoonChild nails (clear with three white dots down the center.)

Later should be a little interesting though - it's supposed to start snowing here in about 30min, and I'm going to have to go driving in it to bring them their lunch! xP I don't mind bringing their lunch, but I do mind the icy roads! Oh well, I'll be fine - I'm always a careful driver.

I'm a little pissed off though, because yesterday I made a new background, and went to post it on this forum I frequent - in the "Photos" section, right? WRONG! Apparently, you can't post pictures in the Photos board....you have to post them in Overall. ?!?!? WTF kind of sense does that make? NONE! *rolls eyes* They need to learn how to run a forum a little better, or at least post some ACTUAL rules instead of just "be nice and have a good time." *shrugs*

Anywho, the polish remover should have dried by now, so time to get painting!! xP BTW, me doing this has NOTHING to do with my avoiding going downstairs and eating that FAT FUCK's nasty ass food. XD Or maybe it does! ;)

<33 Zee

Introduction

Hello there! My name is Zacharee Caine, but I prefer Zee. I'm 21, female, married, no children, bisexual, average (body type,) sarcastic, bipolar, a smoker - and did I mention brutally honest? My husband's name is Mike (20yo,) and we live together with a few roommates (currently.) I have a BEAUTIFUL cat named Gabriel, though she goes by Momo or just Kitty. :) She's tabby/tortoise shell - dk/lt grey stripes with some white and LOTS of peach spots. I have a lot of interests and hobbies - it would literally take hours to sit here and write them all down. I'm very opinionated, and have no problem saying EXACTLY what's on my mind. But, that doesn't mean I'm a bitch! I may come across as one, but you'll realize that 100% of my humor is sarcastic, and underneath I'm actually a very nurturing person and a great listener. I love to laugh and have a good time, but I'm not a "wild child," per se. I'm very open, so if you have any questions you'd like to ask me - feel free! :)

<33 Zee