The House Tornado

Nothing has changed really, still in the same house with the same people dealing with the same situation. I've been job hunting like crazy the last few days, but I really haven't come up with anything too promising. I went ahead and filled out an application to work at HSN again, but I don't know A) how long it's going to take to get a response (last time it was a few months,) and B) whether me working there before (and why I left) will cause me not to get the job. :/ So, I'm still kind of at a loss.

Today itself has been quite the interesting day....after Mike went to work, he gave me a call while he was one his smoke break. I don't know if it was him calling or what, but on the first ring all of the power to the electronics died. The lights and the ceiling fan were still on, but the computers, TV and cable box were OUT, and they were NOT turning back on. The whole house (Beth, Frank, Sis and Chris) were down in the basement trying to figure out which breaker was acting up, but none of them were doing anything. So, we were about to give up - I was back in my room and they were downstairs checking plugs, and I just flipped on the lights and EVERYTHING CAME BACK ON! WTF?!?!? *rolls eyes* Old ass house. xP

During the process of trying to get it to work, Sis and Chris starting fighting...BADLY. He even told Frank that he was so mad at Sis that he was about to slap her - and THAT did it. Currently, he is in the process of packing his shit and moving out, because Beth is kicking him out. Sis said she wanted him out, but she's said that before and nothing ever became of it. This time, since he threatened to hurt Sis, Beth isn't taking any shit from anyone and making him leave - and she said if Sis ever got back with him (whether he TRIED to move back in or not,) she would kick her out too. So, I'm thinking that this is the SERIOUS SERIOUS end to their relationship. It's kind of a double-edged sword.....Chris was a really cool guy to hang around, but unfortunately he was more lazy and aggressive than anything. He would pick a fight with Sis or Beth over NOTHING!! The fight today started over who was going to walk up the stairs and ask me to check the power!

Aaand the power to the electronics just went out again. Thank god my laptop has a battery. xP So, I'm sitting here in the dark hoping if I leave the lights off long enough, everything will trip back on again. *shrugs* I have no idea how electrical wiring works. LOL

Anyways, some serious shit is going down today - so I'm just hiding in my room waiting for it to dissipate. I'm not sure, but I think Chris just left - either with the first load of his shit or for good. To be honest, it was time for him to go anyways. Him and Sis weren't even a couple anymore - they didn't share ANYTHING (not even cigs,) they fought CONSTANTLY, Sis told me more than once she was "done" with him, and the other night he left to go somewhere and she was downstairs on the computer praising god that he finally left the house so she could get away from him. If you don't like the dude, why would you let him live with you? Yeah, he was a cool guy, but once the relationship is over, it's OVER. There's really no mending it past a certain point.

Anyways, I'm going to go back to my rat research and hope no one tries to blame all of this on me (since it started with trying to get my power back on.) :/ Wish me luck?

<33 Zee

Depressive Babbling That No One Cares About

Today has probably been one of the worst days of my entire life...and I don't know if I can recover from it. I'm just so damn down and depressed I almost looked up a suicide hotline number, but I figured they wouldn't want to listen to my stupid ass anyways....who would? I tried to call several members of my family, but they all ignored me (literally pressing the "ignore" button.) I just can't fucking take it....especially since this is all over something so dumb as missng a dentist's appt. My ENTIRE FAMILY is angry with and ignoring me over A FUCKING DENTIST APPT. How ridiculous! Especially since I TRIED to go....I drove around for over 45min. and couldn't FIND the fucking place! I ended up almost 10mi. passed one turn, wasted all of my gas, and almost couldn't even take Mike to work, but that doesn't matter. ALL that matters, is that my grandmother is "embarrased" and "would have a hard time ever showing [her] face there again." REALLY?!?!?!? *sigh*

And Mike's mad at me too....over something even more stupid....A BEER. He barely even looked at me before he got out of the car and just slammed the door in my face. He normally calls me several times just to chat, but he purposely left his cell phone home so I couldn't call him, and he wouldn't have to call me until he was ready to leave. So, I'm just his fucking chauffer. That's all I ever am to anyone....chauffer, errand bitch, pack mule....whatever suits their needs at the moment. I need other people's help to, but at least I always thank them and show a little appreciation for what they did for me....even my grandmother wouldn't be able to deny that with a clear concious.

The saddest part? I'm writing this because no one, literally NO ONE wants to even hear me say "hello," much less anything else. So, what's the point of me being around? Why do I sit here and torture myself with a family that doesn't even appear to like me?

The reason I'm still here? Because I'm too much of a fucking coward to kill myself.

Not Much Different

Not really a whole lot has changed since my last post. I'm still dealing with that tweaked nerve, which is driving me insane. I can't sleep because I have to hold extremely cold drink in my mouth to make the pain stop, the only time I do is when I'm so tired I pass out - which is usually when I'm sitting up, holding my drink. >< Mike's been loving that. But, everything else is generally the same. I helped mom move into her new house this weekend, but we've still got some more stuff to do. Renee's having some problems, but I'd rather not talk about them until things are settled. The hamsters are doing great - Mike's have calmed down A LOT since he's started working with them, but Pixie is still really skittish. :/ It's just going to take some time, I guess.

Well, I'm going to go take some more pain pills and try to work in a nap since Mike's already gone to work.

<33 Zee

On the mend

I'm still pretty sick, but I'm starting to do better. I finally slept last night after DAYS. I went back to the doctor three days ago, and he gave me a cycle of steroids and some nerve pain killers - apparently, the ear infection got so bad that it tweaked a facial nerve, which is why I've been in so much pain. :/ yay. The pain's starting to fade a little, but I'm really worried about the nerve - I've never dealt with anything like this, and I have no idea what to expect. Everyone keeps telling me to go online and read about it, but, honestly, I'm too afraid to do it. I'll start reading some of the worst-case-scenario stuff and start having a panic attack - which, I'm sure wouldn't be too good for me to do right now.

But, on a lighter side, the steroids/pain killers have been making me do some HILARIOUS shit. Last night, I kept falling asleep sitting up - with my drink in my hand! One time I woke up looking for my drink, and found it in the bed, with drink/ice still in it! Another time I jumped out of bed, frantically searching for my drink while half asleep, and it was behind the bed on the windowsill. I kept talking about crazy shit....the other night I started yelling at Mike for no reason - while he was giving me a massage to help me sleep! xP This is why I hate taking steroids, but he's been having a good ol' time laughing at me. lol

Mike got a new job at Buffalo Wild Wings, and he seems to be really enjoying it. I'm not particularly liking the fact that he doesn't get off til after midnight some nights, but it's better than getting up at 4am and driving for over an hour. xP This job's only 5min. away! :D So, everything's slowly but surely falling into place, so we may be moving out a lot sooner than I thought! (but, still not as soon as I'd hoped for. xP)

The hamster's are doing great, BTW. They seem to be settling into their new homes nicely, and even letting us pet/hold them. :) Mike's Russian ones, Twitch and Tweak are still biting a little, but not nearly as bad as the first week. :) Pixie is still REALLY skittish, so petting her is hard, but when I scoop her into my hand she is actually pretty calm. She's starting to nip at my fingers a little, but I think it's just more curiosity than anything - it's no where near hard enough to break the skin. I've been bitten by an old friend's hamster before - when they bite, they mean it - blood was dripping to the floor.

Anywho, I'm going to clean up a little bit and then I'm getting the car back from my grandmother. She was supposed to give it back to me this morning, but since I hadn't slept in so long, when I finally did, I was too zonked out to even hear the alarm. :/ It made me feel bad to waste her time, but she was just happy that I finally got some sleep. xP

<33 Zee

Critterific!

Wow, apparently it's been nearly a month since I've written anything! xP Which, is not suprising...my ear infections came back due to the doctor only giving me half of a cycle of antibiotics. But, I went back yesterday morning and got a full cycle this time, plus some lortab for the pain. Which is suprising, because Sis's boyfriend, Chris, went to the hospital the day before (for a toothache,) and all they gave him was a cycle of antibiotics. :/ A little confusing, yes? xP But, they've been hurting me a lot, so I've barely been checking my messages, much less worrying about writing a blog. lol

My grandfather's birthday was today....and I completely forgot about it. >< I felel REALLY bad, even though I have a pretty damn good excuse - I was up all night in agony over my ear and when I finally went to sleep (around 7am,) I didn't wake up til nearly 2pm. Nana called me not too long after that, freaking out on me for not showing up. :'( I didn't mean to piss anyone off, but I'm sick! I can't help it if I'm passed out half the day from exhaustion/lortab! xP

Anyways, Pixie, my Robo Dwarf Hamster, is doing great! :DD She seems to be very pleased with her home and is getting a little less skittish of us....hopefully we'll be able to hold her soon! The same day we got her, Mike's gerbil, Rico, passed away. :'( It was really sad, and we ended up spending the rest of the night in silence. :/ I felt so bad about it, the next day we went out and got him two Russian Dwarf Hamsters, which are both female. :) He named them Twitch and Tweak. xP Which, are very suitable names.....Tweak is a spazoid and Twitch has an actual eye twitch! xP (It's not anything bad, she does it when she gets angry!) They're a little more hostile than Pixie, but they're warming up to us a lot faster than her. Pixie still runs from our hands a bit, but we can pet Twitch and Tweak with no problem most of the time. :D
We're turning into a couple of regular critter lovers. xP We collectively spend a few hours a day just watching and playing with them (the cat seems to be getting a little jealous.) xP We've even decided that when we get a place of our own, we're going to get me a rat as a house-warming pet. :D I haven't decided whether I want a medium- or large-size rat, but I would definitely love to have an albino one....and I'm pretty sure I'll be naming it Walter, regardless of gender. Walter just seems like a rat's name to me. xDD If you have any suggestions, let me know!

Anyways, aside from the ear agony, life's been going pretty good. Mike got a job at Buffalo Wild Wings, and he's supposed to be starting early this week. :D He was so excited when they told him that he started dancing around the room. xP He ordered his scooter a few days ago, so it could be here at any time. I'm really worried about him driving around on that thing, but he thinks he's being a burden by needing me to drive him around. *rolls eyes* Uhmm...it would be different if he weren't my husband....lol

There have been some bad things happening in the background though. Beth's FIANCE (YES, FIANCE) has been being a petty little BITCH about parking his truck lately. He's been going out of his way, including parking so close to my car you couldn't spit between them and going outside after we've left and scooting his truck a few feet. *rolls eyes* It's really getting ridiculous and there's honestly no reason for it. I hadn't done anything to him, and I really don't deserve to be treated this way. Hell, I haven't even spoken a word to the guy - so, WTF?! I can understand him being upset about me ignoring him, but this is getting childish. EXTREMELY childish....especially since he's been locking Gabriel down in that cold ass basement at nights. One night I even found her locked in the junk room! He's seriously asking for it....Mike is on his last nerve with this guy and I really don't know if I can hold him back from hitting him if he does one more thing. Moving in and screwing his mom does NOT make you anyone's father or give you any power over us. We're roommates, not kids, we came back to help HER out - so get the fuck over yourself.

Anywho, enough of that fat, disgusting slob. He doesn't deserve that much room on my blog....or air. xP

Well, I'm going to go enjoy my hubby's wonderful homemade chicken alfredo and (my favorite!) cooked carrots, which he's making to help me feel better. :)) I hope it works. :/
<33 Zee

The Sewing Life Alchemist

So, I didn't get to see Kerli's interview/performance on the Dj Rossstar show....and I haven't been able to watch the video of it either. :/ My ears have been hurting me so bad the last few days that I've barely been able to keep the ice off of my neck, much less try to stick ear buds in there. :/ Today was my second day on antibiotics though, so hopefully it won't be hurting as badly tomorrow.

I've been sewing my ass off today, trying to take my mind off of it. I had a big, plastic duffel bag that was for shower/beach stuff, but I never used it - so, I turned it into my sewing case! :D I made two big pockets to go on the side (one had smaller pockets on the front,) out of my LBHS After Prom t-shirt. :) Now I have some place to put all of that elastic and stuff without having to sort through it.

I finally finished watching FullMetal Alchemist....and I'm glad I didn't finish it until the second season came out. They left it WIDE the fuck open. xP But, the problem is....the first 10 or so episodes of the second season are a review of the first season. So, we we're sitting there going "WTF? Are you sure this is the second season?" xP He finally had to skip through the episodes (while my eyes were closed,) to make sure. xP

Anywho, off to watch a little Family Guy before I head off to bed. Hopefully, I sleep throughout the night tonight. That would be nice. :)

<33 Zee

Creative

Today's been a pretty good day! We were running errands all morning, but afterwards, we were having fun and hanging at the house with Shaggy. We ended up going through pretty much all of the music on my laptop. xP

Afterwards, I went to work for Nana - which wasn't so bad for once. NO customers came in, and only a few people called, so I pretty much spent the whole time organizing her buttons. She said I could keep all but the shirt buttons. :D She also gave me some ribbon, lace, elastic, snaps, zippers and even bought me a bottle of loose, silver glitter on her way back. :) As soon as I got home I started decorating the beanie baby change purse I made, and she turned out BEAUTIFULLY!! This is probably the third thing I've handmade, and I'm really impressed with how well I did! :D I've been thinking about making stuff like this and then selling them somewhere around here - maybe Happy's when it warms up? I've got a whole bunch of beanie babies that I'm never going to play with again - aside from decorating them if I do intend to sell them!

I just went downstairs to show Mike's mom, 'cause I thought she'd get a kick out of it....and she liked it so much, she gave me one of her beanie babie to make her one! xP

Well, I'm off to start that - probably going to have to rip up another pair of pants to get a zipper for it. xP

<33 Zee