Uplifted

I've been in a really great mood today. :) I have been all day for some reason, even though I technically have no reason to be. xP

We went to Sunday dinner earlier, which was fun. :) We had pot roast with carrots and potatoes, which my grandpa cooked in their new pressure cooker. I thought my grandma was supposed to be making it, but I guess she wasn't feeling that well. :/ It was tasty, regardless of who made it, though! lol My mom seemed like she was in a better mood, which always makes me happy. I'm not too totally sure what's been going on between her and Dad, but I do know that it's been up and down recently. :/

Afterwords, we went out job hunting with Shaggy in tow. We went scrounging around the mall since we hadn't been there yet, and got a few leads. I went into Hot Topic and they said they wouldn't be hiring until June or July. :/ But, things were looking good for Spencer's, which would be an AWESOME job to have! They said they'd be looking over my application today or tomorrow, so hopefully I hear something soon! :D

While we were there I ran into Dixie - I hadn't seen her in FOREVER! But, she was looking good and she's about 20wks. pregnant with a little boy! :) I'll bet he's adorable, I've always thought she would make beautiful kids. :) Then we saw Mike's cousin Bill, whom I call Asshole. xP He didn't recognize me at first, since he hasn't seen me after losing the weight, which was kind of nice. :) I'm not trying to be vain or anything, but it is nice when you get those kind of reactions. You get told you're fat and ugly all of your life, then someone - ANYONE - says "DAYUM!" and you feel like Queen of the World. :)

Mike and I have been doing A LOT better. We finally realized that we were just taking our stress over this house on each other, and we haven't been fighting, like, AT ALL. It's been nothing but "I love you"s and snuggles. :D I love it. I hope it stays like this, at least until we finally get the hell out of here.....this house is stressful enough without us tearing each other a new asshole over nothing.

Well, enough rambling. I'm going to go take a bath and then probably hit the bed early since we have A LOT to do tomorrow. :)

<33 Zee

Fucked Up Week

The last week has been more of a headache than anything. We've been promised money the last four days, and still haven't gotten it, and who knows when we will. Mike and I had a pretty epic fight, but everything's ok now. I really honestly believe that it's just us being in this house that's making us fight so much - when we were living on our own, even though it was in a motel, we hardly ever fought and we always had everything we needed. Now, we're in an actual house with these fucktards - and we can barely keep food in the house. *rolls eyes* And, unfortunately, most of it is due to his dumbass Mom who can't keep her head out of her boyfriend's ass long enough to see that she's getting herself into some MAJOR debt. *shakes head* Take a note people, this is what happens when you get WAY TOO DESPERATE!

Anywho, everything's going pretty good with the family. My sister's sick, and I think my grandmother might be coming down with something too, but other than that everyone's doing fine. Well, my Dad is apparently still screwing with my Mom's head - which I'm not even trying to get in the middle of. I think they just need to NOT talk to each other PERIOD for a while so they can sort their own feelings out instead of being so worried about the other's. *shrugs* But, that's just my opinion. I don't know the whole story, so I can't really say a whole lot. :/

I'm still trying to quit smoking - and it's probably the hardest thing I've ever had to do, especially since Mike is still going to. I mean, I don't want to make him go outside the room every time he wants to smoke, but him sitting beside me with it drives me INSANE sometimes. And the worst part is, I can't even grab it and take a hit or two if I get really desperate, because you're not supposed to chew the Nicorette and smoke - supposedly, it fucks up your heart. So, I just kind of have to sit there and deal with it. :/ Truth be told, it'll probably be better in the long run, because I'll be used to him sitting beside me with it, so maybe it won't bother me so much once I am done with the Nicorette.

Either way, it's been a really fucked up week and I can not wait for the weekend. I just want to sleep all day and pretend we never moved back in this shit hole. :/ But, that's why they call them DREAMS.

<33 Zee